درد شما تحویل قدرت من است

درد شما تحویل قدرت من است


Fragmented parts of the person I once was return to me
The dark clouds that once followed me day and night depart from me
I am enchanted by the very thought of freedom
Liberty from the woes that once imprisoned me
Breaking free from the pain I allowed you to inflict
Yes, I allowed
Can man do to me that which I do not consent?
But ah, alas the strength of my mind
My will to attain happiness
To survive and look destruction in the very eye and say not so
You shall not destroy me!
I have risen to fight
To take back what is my own
Empowerment besieges me
I will be victorious in all that is set before me
I was on a quest when you slithered in
It was not you that I meant to find
Though pained by our meeting
I still dare say
My journey was triumphant
I found what I did not know that I seek
Strength immeasurable
Infinite power from within
Bitterness I cannot harbor
Only love and peace in knowing you have found joy

In Your Arms

In Your Arms



The only place I feel safe
When the world has become cold
When all else has failed me
You're the only one that still stands
When wondering this earth alone with not a place to call my own
Not a friend with a shoulder to cry
Not a place with a solace to seek
It is you that finds me
Embraces my soul within
Comforts the turmoil that encircles my existence
Providing your assurance
Your assurance to never deposit more on me than I can bear
Enveloping me as I realize I am naught but mortal man
Cradling me as my essence cries out in affliction
Your peace takes hold of me
Ushering me into your perfect will
Breathing strength into the chambers of my heart
Holding me, I am constricted in your sight
Shielding me in the shadows of your wings
I hear angelic whispers as I lay lethargic
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
Angel wings gently brush against my face
I awake to find all that I am is in all that you are
All of my burdens are cast upon you
My sorrows you have taken
Your serenity you have given
Freely upon me you love eternal now resting

Grief by Olivia Jackson| Lulu Poetry

Grief by Olivia Jackson| Lulu Poetry


I listened as the cold winds took away my dreams.
I pretended not to hurt, but my lips quivered and my eyes began to
water.
I started to cry.
The very breath in my lungs failed me.
As I long for the next beat to follow every beat of my heart so I long
for him.
And like an out of body experience, I heard the words come out of his
mouth.
I want to be with her, I love her.
The "her" was not me.
My eyes over flowed, as if a faucet stood open right above them.
I cried away all the belief that our life would forever be spent
together.
That we shall grow old and bear children in our love.
There our love died.
As if never born.

Searching

Searching



Traveling through life as if in the outer realms of society
Wondering aimlessly to distant places, near future, long forgotten pasts, and the confusing present.
Never finding anything, just wide blank open spaces.
All the looking just trying to find your niche in life.
A hold, a place to belong.
A place where the grass is greener, and the sky is the perfect shade of blue.
A place where money is delivered to you like the morning paper, and where finding happiness is as simple as putting on your favorite underwear.
A place where you lack nothing.
Where you need not search for anything.
It all finds you.

Lost Without You

Lost Without You


Before I met you, lost was I wondering through the twists and turns of life.
Though not knowing I was lost.
Looking back is as though looking in a mirror into the past and seeing I was incomplete.
You entered my life as a main character takes the stage, I saw the sun rise...everything illuminated before me.
As a blind man who sees for the first time so my life became.
The happiness I found, never knowing to exist.
Never knowing that the event of one person entering ones life can be paramount.
Never knew of a love that could make me a different me.
A better me.
I looked into our future and saw infinite possibilities of happiness.
Never seeing the failures, the hurt nor the pain that laid wait in our path.
Today I sit in indescribable pain.
The pain that you can't point to where it hurts.
I want to reach out to you and scream I love you!
Instead of the infinite love and laughter I once saw I now see you with another.
Another love?
I still can't place the events that lead to this place that we now stand.
As I look into that mirror of our past, I never saw me lost without you.
I thought you would be just another flame in the heat of summer.

Desolate Land

My heart is as vast as the earth I now stand on.
I love with the might of seas that rage,
In the same manner so my heart breaks.
With rough tumbling crashes of waves pelting my fragile body.
Defenseless to the matters of the heart.
Pain felt in sickness or battle, none can compare.
To the pain that just is, not to be felt in one place, but destroys the whole being.
To be broken hearted is to feel abandoned by love.
The feeling of death though still alive.
Is there a place where we may go to escape the feeling within?
Is there a river where we may go to drown the pain that lingers and threatens to destroy our very souls?
The crippling feeling of nothingness taking over with every breath.
Suffocated by the very air that we breathe.
I want to leave this land.
This land that is scorched by tears or agony,
Ravished by betrayal and loss.
Destroyed by the selfishness of man.
My heart longs to go back home.
To the place where danger was unforeseen.
Where love smiled so beautiful.
So beautiful that my strength left me as it did Solomon in the days of old.
As I fell weakened to my knees,
The wraith of murdered love crept in and gutted out my very heart,
Stolen in the night.
My only hope at this hour is that my heart seeks its abode,And returns to the place where it once slept in the cocoon of love